Let me tell you about the awesome and amazing power of God:
On December 15th, 2023, I was deliberately poisoned and left for dead in my apartment, where I live alone. According to the person's timetable who poisoned me, I was expected to be dead by Tuesday, December 19th, 2023. The poison was so deadly that it caused my bodily functions to shut down for about five days. So, for about five days, I was unable to eat (I had no appetite at all), drink (I did not thirst), urinate, or defecate. It was the strangest and scariest thing ever… to have absolutely no appetite/to have no desire for food, to not have a desire for water/to not get thirsty, to not urinate, or move my bowels for almost a week.
During that entire time (and many days afterwards), I laid in my bed, in excruciating pain. It felt like acid was moving around in my chest and through my veins and body. That is the best way that I can describe how I felt. It was a very painful burning sensation of something (the poison) moving through my body doing its damage (killing me). To actually feel that taking place inside of my body is a feeling that I would never forget. In addition to that, I kept feeling really hot, as if it was 100 degrees inside of my apartment (and of course it was not).
I was very weak. I remember that on, maybe, day two after being poisoned, I got out of bed to go to the bathroom to look in the mirror to see if I looked like how I felt (and I did), and I was so weak that I almost fell. I had to grab on to furniture and the wall to keep myself up/to steady my balance.
When I got back in the bed, I cried a little and I remember telling myself that I was dying and that I was about to die soon and that exactly what the person (I know who the person is, and I forgive them) had intended when they poisoned me (to kill me) was going to take place.
I remember crying some more; this time, thinking about leaving my mother behind and knowing that she would most likely find out about my death from the news (on TV), and that she would not have anyone to love her and care about her and visit her in the nursing facility. And besides all of that, I knew that my mother would miss me a lot, and she would take my death very hard, and she would not even have anyone to console her. Even as I type this and recall those thoughts I had and the possibility of that having happened, tears fill my eyes.
My thoughts then shifted from my mother back to me, and I remember feeling angry about the fact (what I thought was a fact during that time) that I was about to die. It did not seem right or fair. I was angry because I knew that there was so much that I wanted to do with my life. I had goals and dreams. And there were so many places that I wanted to go and so many things that I wanted to do. I remember thinking that I would die without ever really having been happy. It just did not seem right to me that God would allow me to die. I remember distinctly thinking that this could not be my time to leave this earth. Yet, what was taking place in my body (the poison ravaging it), and the extreme pain that I was in, was telling me otherwise (that it was my time to die).
However, what made my approaching death easier, was the fact that, besides my mother, there was no one else in the entire world that loved me and cared whether I died or not. That is what I had recently found out. My grandmother had just transitioned the week before, and in fact, her wake/viewing service was on this same date that I was poisoned. And every single person who was a part of my life/who I knew/who I cared about (family, so-called friends, associates, co-workers, neighbors, my community…) had all betrayed me and jeopardized my life, due to jealousy (them being jealous of me and my accomplishments, and more) and wanting to profit off of something that belong to me (my business: Formula B Solutions...)... And so, I had no one. The world was against me and wanted me dead. Like today, they would rather see me die/dead than see me be successful. It is sad and it is the truth.
Meanwhile, maybe by the fourth day, while still in pain, and very weak and lifeless feeling, I felt God stir my Spirit. I can never forget that feeling or moment. But before I get into that, let me mention that during this entire time of me lying in bed dying, I had not called on God for help. Not once. I did not pray, or talk to Him, or anything. But I will tell you that I was not upset with God. I remember this clearly. You see, regardless to what bad thing happens to me, I can never ever be mad at God because all throughout my life, He has been more than good to me, that if He never does another thing for me for the rest of my life, I will still love Him and glorify His name and be grateful for every amazing thing that He has done for me.
So, on that day when I felt God stir my Spirit, what He did was, He put in my Spirit (He told me) that I was not going to die. Now I had no evidence of that during that moment, because during that same time, I still felt the burning of what felt like acid moving through my chest and my body caused by the poison. But in the moment that God put in my Spirit that I would not die, ☆I received it, and I believed it☆, because it never felt like to me that it was my time to die. It was unsettling because I knew that a couple of years prior to this happening to me, God had promised me some things that had not yet come to pass, and from what I know about the Word of God, and God himself, is that He is a promise keeper.
Psalm 145:13 reads:
The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made.
So, as days went by, after God told me that I would not die, and I received it, I began to see the evidence. I started to desire to drink liquids/water, and I also developed a small appetite. Then gradually, my bodily functions returned to normal, whereas I was able to urinate and defecate. I remember that I began listening to my favorite Gospel songs and I began to praise God and pray. And in doing so, I reestablished my connection with Him, and that made me stronger and stronger and feel more alive and hopeful. I remember feeling God’s love and presence so strong, not at all saying that He had ever left me. I know, especially now, that God was always with me. God is faithful and He loves me (and you).
2 Thessalonians reads:
But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.
So, although being poisoned caused me a lot of pain and a near death experience and it wreaked havoc in my life, as well as it caused me to lose about twenty pounds in less than two weeks (and several more pounds after that, where I looked emaciated), God did not let the poison kill me. God did not allow me to die. God did not let the plan of my enemy (enemies) destroy me. And not only that, but God also healed me through and through. And today, nearly three months later, I feel healthier than I did prior to being poisoned. I actually feel healthier than I have felt in over two years. And I look great. I have pictures of me after I was poisoned (very sad) and pictures of me today. God is so good!
Psalms 41:2-3 (NLT) reads:
The Lord protects them and keeps them alive. He gives them prosperity in the land and rescues them from their enemies. The Lord nurses them when they are sick and restores them to health.
Note: For the sake of this blog post not turning into a novel, I had to leave out a lot of information/series of events pertaining to me being poisoned, to get to my point. However, the full account will be a part of my testimony, which I will make sure that you do not miss.
I want to end this blog post by mentioning that during this ordeal, God not only saved my life, but He has also blessed me tremendously in so many ways. Yes, He has! Again, everything will be in my upcoming testimony.
So, until next time, be encouraged and trust in the awesome power of God. Nothing is impossible with God!
Also, remember Romans 8:28:
...All things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. ⭐️
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God loves you.
Love and peace,
Yolanda Billingslea (Ms. B)
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My X (Twitter Page) is @YBformsolutions / Ms. B / Formula B Solutions Strategic Program Designers & Consulting Services LLC
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Scriptures:
For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the lord. – Jeremiah 17:14
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. – Psalms 46:1
[God] will cover you with His feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart... - Psalm 91:4
Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh; Is there anything too difficult for Me? – Jeremiah 32:27
If you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. – Mathew 6:14-15
For I know that plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11
No weapon formed against me shall prosper. – Isaiah 54:17
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Song: No Weapon Formed Against Me Shall Prosper – Fred Hammond
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